wow never saw that coming...!

Okay, you guys know about the whole jesus ordeal right? well, we were going out july 9 that morning. That afternoon i found out that he is staying in virginia. (so i need ninja skills to help kidnap him) But we agree to a long distance relationship. I know a friend who is currently in a long distance so i can get advice. He really wants me. So i agreed. But i am still cautious. We can talk and stuff and he says he trusts me in a way.  What do you guys think??? and Welcome angel to the blogging group!!

i HATE MEN

ugh... i need a break...

I am a horrible person

I know, i know i promised that i would post (like around the beginning of june) but things again have been hectic. For instance, nina, my mom, and lani are plotting against me. OBD again. For all that don't understand talk to nina cause it is very hard to word and will take all night writing it. Anyways... also i am sorry vina about autumn wind.. i have to transfer my stuff to my mac so it is lost in the clutter but i did write something..so you can't say that i forgot.Summer school is so boring. I have economics and i swear to god i will never look at money again. It is more dry than sakayue..more dry than the gobi desert.Anyways.. i need your opinion on this and i expect a long answer. If two people tell each other than they like each other does that mean they are going out?

ARGH

hopefully i will get around to actually posting those pictures of my letterman soon.. just been so... walter lately. I need... that new laptop that i am going to get for my birthday.. getting a MAC .... be quiet to all those who oppose.. MACs are capable of doing the same things as a pc. -_- anyways... i am bored so i thought i say something.

^^

I am getting my letterman on May 13^^

It has been a while...

Well, hello! I know that i haven't update in like since april 11 but hey.. things happen! Anyways.. i was thinking (which we all know that isn't a good thing><) that i need your help on something. Music wise.. not personal problems or my insanity. I have been gathering a lot of music to a point where it doesn't all fit my ipod so... i need your help in narrowing it down.. so far.. my limitations are that.. all my classical music stays.. and of course linkin park :). But what about the rest? You guys know my estension of my ipod.. to a point of course. so here is what i want to know.. FROM EVERYONE.. including YOU.. YES YOU......
So here it goes:
Top 5 artist
Number one song
Number one album
and 5 songs that you can't go with out..

ARGH!!

I am irrated so i am going to write to you guys. I have to write a paper for bio and we get to choose our topics. So i decided to write it on the bacteria and viral infections on the organ systems. So today, i started writing it. The references that i am using is my moms microbiology book. And this is where is gets nasty. I written i good page worthy and my mom is again trying to write my paper. Ever since i hit middle school she always didn't like how i wrote my paper and wrote is for me by her standards. And it just peeves me. I am a good writer. So what if it doesn't go by how you would have written it?? She says that i am going all over the place and that i have no idea what i am writing about and that i should write it the way she thinks i should. I mean, here is a brief piece of it:

There are three kinds of bacteremia; transient, continuous, and intermittent. Transient bacteremia occurs either spontaneously or something minor. Some other conditions could be messing with infected tissues, instrumentation of contaminated mucosal surfaces and surgery with nonsterile sites and instruments. On the other hand, continuous bacteremia is released at a constant rate. Intermittent bacteremia can be found with hosts that have undrained abscesses.
There are two ways the blood stream can get infect. It is either intravascular or extravascular. However, fungemia could be either. Intravascular infections originate in the cardiovascular system. They include infective endocarditis , mycotic aneurysm, supportive thrombophlebiti, and IV catheter-associated bactermia. These are contiuous bacteremia and extremely life threatening. These infections are able to gain access the blood by the increasing use of the IV catheters, and intra-arterial lines. For example, staphylococcus epidermidis has increased the cause of infection in hospital eniviroment.


and she says that it is too all over the place. And the thing is.. she didn't even read the whole paper before she started critizing it.
(fumes)
anyways.. on a lighter note... hey anna...finished your little section of Autumn wind yet???

Twiiter.. anyone interested???

Wow... it's ... weird o.0 ... yeah.. anyone want to try... idk.. it is weird.. my user name is somber_apathy... <- you know what that means right??? i have to get a new email now.. :(...hmm

loi... Jesus is evil ^^

Ah.. the last post.. long story. Cause lets say that i technically didn't write it. Yes, it was Jesus . :)

I'm killng Jesus Palos in Killeen Tx, ergo, if you find said male dead, it was me

Annexation : how it done.
Overthrow of the monarchy:
Then statehood
http://www.hawaii-nation.org/soa.html

“Their goal, for now, was to "reform" the monarchy”() but to the people of Hawaii, it didn’t seem like the greatest thing. The Native Hawaiians looked up to their Leaders with great respect and aloha. Kalakaua and Lili`uokalani were well-educated, intelligent, skilled in social graces, and above all, they were deeply concerned about the well-being of the Hawaiian people and maintaining the independence of the kingdom.
The league's more drastic members preferred the king's abdication ( one even proposed assassination). They would allow the king to remain on the throne with his power limited by a new constitution. If he refused to comply, they would resort to dethroning him. Many Hawaiian League members belonged to a volunter militia, the Honolulu Rifles, which was officially in service to the Hawaiian government, but was secretly the league's military arm.
Kalakaua was obligated to accept a new Cabinet composed of league members, who presented their constitution to him for his signature at `Iolani Palace. The king argued and protested, but finally signed the Bayonet Constitution. As one Cabinet member noted, "Little was left to the imagination of the hesitating and unwilling sovereign, as to what he might expect in the event of his refusal to comply with the demands made upon him." ()
The Bayonet Constitution greatly reduced the king's power, making him just a symbol to be shown to the public. It placed the actual executive power in the hands of the Cabinet.
Another purpose for the Bayonet Constitution was to remove the Native Hawaiian majority's dominance at the polls and in the Legislature.
The Hawaiians persistently opposed the decrease of their voice in governing their own country and resented the decline of the monarch's powers and how their king was force and blacked mail into the Bayonet Constitution . The self-styled Reform Cabinet responded that only an act of the Legislature could do this - though their new constitution had never been put to a vote.

In 1889 a young part-Hawaiian named Robert W. Wilcox staged an uprising to overthrow the Bayonet Constitution. He led some 80 men, Hawaiians and Europeans, with arms purchased by the Chinese, in a predawn march to `Iolani Palace with a new constitution for Kalakaua to sign. The king was away from the palace, and the Cabinet called out troops who forcibly put down the insurrection. He was tried for conspiracy, Wilcox was found not guilty by a jury of Native Hawaiians, who considered him a folk hero.

Like her brother, the new queen was childless. She named as her successor to the throne her niece, Princess Ka`iulani, who was away at school in London.
Lili`uokalani's husband, John Dominis, an American sea captain's son, died just seven months after she became queen.
She would soon face a formidable threat to the monarchy and the independence of the kingdom. In early 1892 Lorrin Thurston and a group of like-minded men, mostly of American blood, formed an Annexation Club, plotting the overthrow of the queen and annexation to the United States. They kept the organization small and secret - wisely, since they were talking treason.
Thurston went to Washington to promote annexation, and received an encouraging message from President Benjamin Harrison: "You will find an exceedingly sympathetic administration here."
In Honolulu, Hawaiians spoke out strongly for their monarchy and presented numerous petitions to the Legislature to replace the Bayonet Constitution, to no avail.
The queen had also been deluged with petitions for a new constitution, signed by an estimated two-thirds of the kingdom's voters, and she boldly prepared to act on their wishes. In her book, Hawai`i's Story by Hawai`i's Queen , she noted, "The right to grant a constitution to the nation has been, since the very first one was granted, a prerogative of the Hawaiian sovereigns."
On Jan. 14, the first of four crucial days in Hawai`i's history, the queen presided at noon over the legislative session's closing ceremonies at the Government Building. She then walked across the street to `Iolani Palace for a more significant ceremony. She was about to proclaim a new constitution which she had written, restoring power to the throne and rights to the Native Hawaiian people.
The Royal Hawaiian Band played as the queen's invited guests, including diplomats, legislators and Hawaiian petitioners, assembled in the throne room, and a large crowd of Native Hawaiians gathered on the palace lawn.
As the audience waited, the queen argued heatedly with her Cabinet, who refused to sign her new constitution, fearing her enemies would use it as a pretext to challenge her. They finally persuaded her to defer action on it.
The queen addressed the guests in the throne room, and the crowd on the palace grounds, telling them that she was ready to promulgate a new constitution, but yielding to the advice of her ministers, was postponing it to some future day.
Alerted earlier of the queen's intention by two of her Cabinet members, the Annexation Club sprang into action. A 13-member Committee of Safety was chosen to plan the overthrow of the queen and the establishment of a provisional government. As they plotted revolution, they claimed that the queen, by proposing to alter the constitution, had committed ''a revolutionary act."
The American warship USS Boston was in port at Honolulu Harbor. With an eye toward landing troops, Lorrin Thurston and two others called upon the American minister in Hawai`i, John L. Stevens, an avowed annexationist. Stevens assured them he would not protect the queen, and that he would land troops from the Boston if necessary "to protect American lives and property." He also said that if the revolutionaries were in possession of government buildings and actually in control of the city, he would recognize their provisional government.
The next day, Jan. 15, Thurston told the queen's Cabinet that the Committee of Safety would challenge her.
In an effort to stave off the mounting crisis, the queen issued a proclamation declaring that she would not seek to alter the constitution except by constitutional means. Unsuccessfully, she sought Minister Stevens' assurance that he would support her government against armed insurrection. The kingdom's marshal proposed declaring martial law and arresting the Committee of Safety, but the Cabinet feared this would lead to armed conflict, and Lili`uokalani wished to avoid bloodshed.
On Jan. 16, several hundred Native Hawaiians and other royalists gathered peaceably at Palace Square in support of the queen, expressing loyalty to the monarchy, and carefully avoiding saying anything inflammatory.
Simultaneously, at the mass meeting called by the Committee of Safety at the armory, the speeches were incendiary. Lorrin Thurston vehemently denounced the queen and asked the crowd to empower the committee to act as it deemed necessary. The resolution passed amid cheers. No one had mentioned overthrowing the monarchy, but the unspoken was apparently understood by all.
The Committee of Safety delivered a letter to Minister Stevens requesting him to land troops from the Boston, stating that "the public safety is menaced and life and property are in peril."
At 5 that afternoon, 162 fully armed troops from the Boston came ashore. A few of the marines were posted at the American Consulate and Legation, but the main body of troops marched through downtown Honolulu past `Iolani Palace. They were quartered less than a block from the Government Building and the palace. While the troops were ordered ashore ostensibly "to protect American lives and property," their placement close to the palace was threatening. Members of the queen's Cabinet hastened to Stevens to protest the troops' presence, but it made no difference.
The Committee of Safety had initially proposed that Thurston head the government, but he said he was considered such a ,"radical mover" it would be better to choose someone more conservative. They then offered the presidency to Sanford B. Dole, another of the "mission boys," as Thurston called them. Dole had declined to take part in the revolution except for drafting documents. Rather than abolishing the monarchy, he favored replacing the queen with a regency holding the throne in trust until Princess Ka'iulani came of age. Still, he accepted the presidency and submitted his resignation as a justice in Hawai`i's Supreme Court.
On Jan. 17, Dole gave Stevens a letter from Thurston, asking for his recognition of the provisional government, which was planned to be proclaim at three that afternoon. They also had luck. Just as Dole and the Committee of Safety were about to set out to take possession of the Government Building, Hawaiian police halted a wagon loaded with arms for the insurgents, and the driver shot a policeman in the shoulder. (This was the only blood shed during the revolution.) The sound of the shot drew a crowd, including the policemen who had been keeping an eye on the Committee of Safety, and in the confusion, they walked to the Government Building unnoticed.
The building was unguarded and nearly deserted, and few people heard the proclamation that was read from its steps, declaring the end of the monarchy and the establishment of a provisional government as an interim measure until annexation to the United States could be achieved. The American troops were lined up nearby. Minister Stevens immediately, and prematurely, recognized the provisional government.
On Jan. 17, 1893, at dusk, Queen Lili`uokalani yielded her throne under protest, with these words:
"I, Lili`uokalani, by the grace of God and under the constitution of the Hawaiian Kingdom, Queen, do hereby solemnly protest against any and all acts done against myself and the constitutional government of the Hawaiian Kingdom by certain persons claiming to have established a Provisional Government of and for this Kingdom.
"That I yield to the superior force of the United States of America, whose Minister Plenipotentiary, His Excellency John L. Stevens, has caused United States troops to be landed at Honolulu and declared that he would support the said Provisional Government.
"Now, to avoid any collision of armed forces and perhaps loss of life, I do, under this protest, and impelled by said forces, yield my authority until such time as the Government of the United States shall, upon the facts being presented to it, undo the action of its representative and reinstate me in the authority which I claim as the constitutional sovereign of the Hawaiian Islands."
The queen surrendered Hawai`i's sovereignty not to the revolutionaries but to the "superior force of the United States of America" -- temporarily, she believed -- confident that the American government would restore her to the throne.

Bleeding Love For The Broken Hearted..

My heart is bleeding.. on the love, and happynes, and the pain..

It's easier to run

On thursday, march 12, after 5 weeks together, me and cody broke up. You wanna know why? Because and i quote " I am too ubermature". Yeah,... i found out by my roommate's phone cause he was texting her about me and his relationship and how he need to find out how to break up with me. And not only that he was trying to get with her. :( how fucked up is that? And after dealing with all the pain,.. we had a chance to make it into the finals but the stupid team lied infront of our faces breaking a promise on live telivision.

I repeat.. this week has been fucked up

What do you think?

"1.) An inexplainable yet incredibly strong feeling for someone...Most people use the word "love" to get into someone else's pants. Love is overused in today's world, people say they love someone because of the way they look or their body. That isn't love. Love is when you can't do anything without thinking about that person, you always want to be with them. It's not that you want to have sex with them, you just want to spend time with them and you just want to hold them and never let go. Love can be fooling, you can think you're in love and it can lead to the most horrible feeling in the world. Also you can wait so long for someone, loving them, and waiting for them to love you back, but they don't return it for a long time and you spend years thinking and thinking and it tears you up inside but when that person realizes that they love you back it's miraculous. Love is a very strong word, don't overuse it."
I found this quote somewhere over the rainbow and it really stood out at me.
Why you ask?
Well, think about it. Who do you love that isn't related to you ( and be honest ^^) ? What is love? Personally, I believe love as a mental emotional that evolves over time. It is something that happens in the mind and works its way into your nervous system.
But I am being hypocritcal. The time it takes to evolves is a variable. I mean, what if that whole mental time can take two days? Two weeks? We of course have read it in Twilight. And read the miraculousy transition...
Onto other things.. i want any open debate about a certain topic. I was just curious and want to know what you think.

Sex. The drive of the physical world today. If you loved someone and thought you were "ready", would you give that person all you had? Would you rather have sex after marriage? Do you think society is pressuring teenagers?

I would love to hear what you guys have to say to this. And as a disclaimer " NO THIS ISN'T RELATED TO MY LIFE."

My favorite Youtube video

He is my strength

I don't know if you remember this, but do you remember when i got grounded on the last week of school last year? Do you remember the reason? If not, well i got grounded because I was taking some of my dad's happy pills. I was using them to clear my head. It is just at times when i was thinking to much to almost pain. I couldn't stop it.
Well, because of the issues with Cody and Sara i had a need to stop my head from hurting. I tried everything. Coffee, sugar, even linkin Park. But it got so bad that i felt a need. A want. A desire.
I didn't take it.
I talked to kate about it. She is the one who understand the filter i needed for my head. And she helped calm me down. While i was in the process of calling her Cody came outside to see what i was up to. Earlier in the day, i have been giving him space. He had a lot on his mind.
He wanted to know what was up with me. I couldn't tell him. Well, he knows about the thing since he read my story "Could you do it?". I just couldn't tell him in the face cause then i would start crying and i hate it when people see me cry. I don't want people to see me as weak.
Later that day, he text me about what happen. And i told him that i am stopping myself because of him.
He is my strength. I don't want to hurt him. That is the last thing i ever want to do.

Cody is my strength.

yummy

here you go nina, I had to fight lani to get this video.

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Since you guys want to know what he looks like. And i am posting some vids later

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this is my cookie! If you know what i mean :)