Boredom Blues..

Yes, I am sad. Why you ask? Because I think history is going to repeat itself.
I don't know if i ever told you this but when I was in Aliamnu Middle school, I hit a friendship depression. It all started with Stephanie Sison. We were friends in the same homeroom until she became powerful i.e. popular. Then she turn everyone except my friend Brittany on me. THey hated me. They said names, accused me of unjust things. I ended up skipping one day of school to go to the beach because i couldn't stand them and i didn't want to end up in the cousnlers office again for crying. 7th grade was a horrid year for me.
The reason why i am telling you this because I think Jessica is going to be the next Stephanie. I just feel it because well, she is not like me or you. She is like Ester is some ways. She acts all preppy and bitchy and stuff. And i think she is going to take Larissa down with her. I mean, I am starting to feel a little uncomfortable around them already. I think part of the reason is because i am comparing everyone to you guys. But i don't know. Jessica is getting on my nerves too. She is soooo blonde. She is loud whiney and just stupid. She said i should quit robotics because it make me all geeky! What i really wanted to say was that "When i get into college and start working, i will be making twice as much money as you and have a set job already for me." But i didn't because i don't want to be lonely. Thats why i haven't left their group. Who would i go to? Who would i hang out with? I haven't been that social with people. I have been doing work. (oh and anna, everyone of my teachers think i am should be in AP! I am soooo happy). I feel kinda isolated. I mean, Robotics, well, i dunno. I don't have anyone to lean on. I am just scared. I really wish that you guys are here. I keep on imagining you guys with me and imgaining what you would say in certain situations. I need advice, please. I need real advice.